A little me time...

In recents posts I have blogged about how I don't know who I am anymore, with a husband, 3 MSC, and a new business I'm starting up I am just busy! I don't(didn't) give myself any "me" time...I guess I thought I didn't deserve it....Now I know(or at least I believe) that I was going through post pardom depresion. I can tell ya one thing, it ain't purdy!! I am slowly trying to get over that...I haven't seen a doctor, just trying to pray and have faith in God that he will pull me though....

So I decided that I neded to do something about my "me" time! I must put in this disclaimer first...I am not a runner!! I never have been. Even though when I was younger I played soccer, softball, and ran cross country.....But as I got older and in High School I was a cheerleader, and didn't exercise much! Granted I weighed barely a 100lbs and had great metabolism!!(HA! That slowed when I went to college, and worse after having 3 kids!) So I had heard of this program on twitter called couch potatoe to 5k. I thought, that's me!!! I checked it out and it seemed very easy..HA! I could barely run for 90 sec. straight!! Well for some reason for the first time in my life I have actually stuck with a workout program.I am on week 6!!! Last night I ran for 2 1/4 miles without stopping! I would never have guessed that my body would do that....and here's the kicker........I actually enjoy it!! I look forward to my runs now, and am happy that I am doing something for "me" .

It is also nice that I have a great support system in my husband. He is training for his first full marathon!! He is up to running 15 miles this week!! He has run two Half marathons before and really wants to accomplish a full one!! I am so proud of him!!

What do you do for YOURself??? Anything I should try?

peace out,

kristan

Wordless Wednesday~

Twin Friends.....

Heartbreaking...

A couple of nights ago I was cathing little Lo(we cath her every 4 hours..) and we were talking like we usually do...she is a major talker!!

And then she asked it~ the one question I have been dreading all her 4.5 years.

"Mommy, um..why do I have Spina Bifida?" My heart sank, and I almost welled up in tears..but I didn't cause I know if I do then she will see that I am sad that she has it too. And I need her to love herself for who she is, not WHAT she is.

Me: Well honey, because God made you that way...

Lo: Well, why doesn't Bug have Spina Bifida?

Me: cause God made her the way she is too...... from this point on it got a little worse..and honestly I was barely holding it together....

Lo: I want to be like Bug....I don't want to have SB....

Me: Honey,(whispers..) me either..(she didn't hear that) God made you extra special, and I love YOU the way you are. It's good to be different!! But if you want to you can pray to God, to tell him how you feel...

Lo: Ok mama, "God, please make me like Bug"..........in Jesus' name..Amen...

Lo: Mama? Me: yes baby...

Lo: Do you think God will make me like Bug while I'm sitting here in your arms????

Me: I'm not sure honey... Lo: Stretching out her legs....do I still have Spina Bifida? Me: sadly....yes sweety...I love you Logan!

This has been heart breaking for me....I know it's going to get worse as she gets older, but man oh man..it's tearing me up inside......

I hope I will be more prepared the next time something like this comes up....or at least ask daddy the next questions!!

xoxo

kristan

how he loves....

These are lyrics from a new song. It is an awesome, goosebumpy song! I hope you get a chance to hear it!

David Crowder Band - How He Loves
From the album Church Music

He is jealous for me
Loves like a hurricane
I am a tree
Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy

When all of a sudden
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory
And I realize just how beautiful You are
And how great Your affections are for me

And oh, how He loves us so
Oh how He loves us
How He loves us all
Yeah, He loves us
Oh how He loves us
Oh how He loves us
Oh how He loves

And we are His portion and
He is our prize
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes
If His grace is an ocean, we're all sinking
And Heaven meets Earth like an unforeseen kiss
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest

I don't have time to maintain these regrets When I think about, the way...

xoxo
kristan

Wordless Wednesday..my beauties..

I'm kind of bored....

I've been kind of bored with blogging lately! I just don't feel like doing it. It takes time that I would rather spend with my children and husband. In fact, I've been kind of bored with everything lately!

Anyone else feeling blah???

xoxo

kristan